When I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer over 3 years ago, I started keeping a journal. Initially, it was just intended to record any side effects from treatment, but over time it became much more than that.
Today I went for my first appointment for superficial radiotherapy. Superficial radiotherapy is “the use of exact, carefully measured doses of radiation to treat cancer. The treatment machine produces medium to low energy x-rays, and these x-rays are directed at the site of the tumour (cancer) in order to destroy abnormal cells”.
I had my CT scan done on Monday 9th September.
I have to wait until Thursday 26th September for the results.
You might think that’s not too long to wait…keep yourself busy, the time will pass soon enough…it’s only a routine scan…the consultant was on holiday, everyone needs a break…it’s the NHS, what more can you expect?
I say BOLLOCKS…I say this routine scan could reveal something that could radically alter my life (particularly as it’s already a given that my life is shortened)…I say I don’t want to wait…I’m tired of waiting…I’m tired of hospital procedures that put my life on hold…I’m tired full stop…I need a FUCKING break.
I just needed to get that off my chest. Have a good day!
“It is a very inconvenient habit of kittens (Alice had once made the remark) that whatever you say to them, they always purr.”
― Lewis Carroll, Through the Looking-Glass, and What Alice Found There
Last Saturday, we had the pleasure of adding a new member to our little family unit…a little ginger kitten. He’s a rather special kitten because he only has one eye. He was found abandoned in a cardboard box with his brother (who sadly did not survive) and he had a severely ulcerated eye which had to be removed. My youngest, Callum, chose him and named him.
A couple of weekends ago, I took a little journey to visit some of my family who live around the Salisbury area. My family are going through a very difficult time – I’m not the only one who has cancer – I wanted to lend my support and visit while I was reasonably healthy. Although the purpose of the trip wasn’t to take photos, unsurprisingly, I did take some – here are some rather random photos – taken with the E-PL1, iPhone and Fujifilm Instax Mini 25!
“Run when you can, walk when you have to, crawl if you must; just never give up.”
I can’t beat around the bush, it has been a very testing year for me and my family…when I look back on 2012, it is all too easy to remember and dwell on the sad things that have happened…yet good and happy things have happened too, not least the support and kindness of some very special people in my life, who continue to remind me what life is about. So, as I write my little retrospective about this past year, it will touch on some sadness, but it will also remember the happiness.
I’ve been a bit manic the last couple of weeks, doing lots of baking and making of cards! I’ve not had the energy to fight my way through crowds of people to do shopping, so I thought this year I’d make home-made goodies for family and friends. I usually make my own cards, using photos, but this year I had a go at potato printing some as well, which was a lot of fun!
All photos in this post were taken with the iPad