When I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer over 3 years ago, I started keeping a journal. Initially, it was just intended to record any side effects from treatment, but over time it became much more than that.
I had my CT scan done on Monday 9th September.
I have to wait until Thursday 26th September for the results.
You might think that’s not too long to wait…keep yourself busy, the time will pass soon enough…it’s only a routine scan…the consultant was on holiday, everyone needs a break…it’s the NHS, what more can you expect?
I say BOLLOCKS…I say this routine scan could reveal something that could radically alter my life (particularly as it’s already a given that my life is shortened)…I say I don’t want to wait…I’m tired of waiting…I’m tired of hospital procedures that put my life on hold…I’m tired full stop…I need a FUCKING break.
I just needed to get that off my chest. Have a good day!
“Run when you can, walk when you have to, crawl if you must; just never give up.”
I can’t beat around the bush, it has been a very testing year for me and my family…when I look back on 2012, it is all too easy to remember and dwell on the sad things that have happened…yet good and happy things have happened too, not least the support and kindness of some very special people in my life, who continue to remind me what life is about. So, as I write my little retrospective about this past year, it will touch on some sadness, but it will also remember the happiness.